I am working on a new project, can’t tell ya what it is yet. Only a few special people know what it is about. I am making it my summer project though I may get time to record throughout this semester, it shall be done by the end of summer. It is gonna be yet another complete 360 from my first 2 albums. It’s funny, I went from acoustic/indie/alternative to this crazy prog rock/metal and now this new thing. You will be shocked… hopefully in a good way…
Enjoy please… if you can.
I had a mullet?
I looked like an emo kid?
I put purple in my hair?
I put pink in my hair?
I dyed my whole head pink?
I looked like a dirty cheeto?
I covered that nastiness with burgandy?
I have gone through sooooo many changes in my hair. I LOVE IT! A new change will be here soon; I have a gift card for Rebel salon and I’m thinking of getting all-over pink (professionally done this time).
I have found myself quite fascinated with the music from horror movies, The Exorcist theme in particular. I am thinking about writing some Halloween themed tunes. Not with words, but just eerie guitars and bass lines that make you think you’re gonna have diarrhea.
I hope to have something before Halloween so I can dress up in my perverted hotdog costume that I’m gonna get and play it at people on campus.
I am currently writing a new song. I have most of the guitar part recorded. I would do the vocals, however I am in a dorm and that would be awkward to sing really loud where everyone could hear…
ABOUT THE SONG:
It is about my usual subject of interest (lack of love), but this time I am doing somthing different. I am not going to use any vocal effects. It isn’t going to be my usual high-pitched eerie voice, it is going to simply be mine. At least that is what I’m aiming for.
“Did You Know” will probably be released sometime this week. I just don’t care anymore, it really isn’t a huge deal at all. It was written in vain but it doesn’t mean the song is terrible, that it’s lost any of it’s meaning. It does make me vulnerable, but I’ve been more vulnerable before, so I’m used to the feeling of being completely naked in front of people. It’s really not too shocking; it’s really not too anything.
It’s a decent song, it’s completely sincere, nothing left out, nothing exaggerated; it’s just a song I wrote from the heart. My fingers just hit the keyboard and they just typed the lyrics all on their own. My heart took over my brain and it just happened. The end. Period.
Once again, it’s not a huge deal to me anymore.
Well, big changes are upon me currently; I am leaving for university next Saturday, so I may be on an extra long hiatus.
I am going to bring Leto (my Schecter) and my amp and all my connections, so when I get a chance, maybe I’ll be able to come up with some new college inspired tunes.
All of this is exciting and scary at the same time; I have many anxieties, so perhaps a tune will spawn from these factors.
Well, that is all for now.
Things are not going well at all in my life, so I am putting everything aside. I can’t work while I’m in this state of mind; nothing is right, nothing works, everything is shit to me. I fucking hate everything I do right now, so I really need a break and I need to work on myself before I start anything new.
I need work on my guitars. I need several sets of strings. One for my Ovation, one for my Schecter, and one for my Broman. I need to visit a luthier to fix my Broman, and I need to redress the 8th and 9th fret on my Schecter. So much maintenace before I can write the music for my next projects.
I’m working on three projects at once: 2 epics and one RUSH cover album of peices of their epics.
1) Epic one: based on Dune by Frank Herbert
2) Epic two: autobiographical epic on my current mental state, chronicled on how bad I am right now and my trek to get better.
3) I am going to do some Rush epics. So far I’ve got: The Fountain of Lamneth: Panacea/Bacchus Plateau; parts of (or maybe all of) Cygnus X-1 Book II: Hemispheres; 2112: Overture/Temples of Syrinx/Discovery. We’ll see how that goes with one person playing guitar and bass and no/little drums.
I am thinking about rerecording some of the terribly recorded tracks and sending a demo cd to some independent record companies… then again, I don’t know. Maybe I should keep this as a hobby. I don’t know if I’m good enough to actually get paid for playing a couple of chords over and over again and singing my emotions that people don’t get.
I don’t know, maybe deep down they know the meanings and the motives for my writing them, but then again, I really have no idea. Something in the pit of my stomach says yes, but on the surface it seems to be a no.
Also, I am still debating whether or not to release my second to last track. It is by far my absolute favorite, but I’m so scared to release it. As redonkulous as it sounds, it kind of makes me cry. It’s just one of those that really means so much to me. I wrote the words as an explosion of creativity after something amazing happened. However, what I have been saying the whole time is partly the theme of the song: I don’t know, maybe it is, maybe it isn’t. As with all my songs it is written for a specific reason and audience, but I’m afraid the message wouldn’t be well received.
Perhaps the night will bring me an answer. Perhaps I will dream of my decision and learn it’s effect on my life. In the morrow, I shall come to a conclusion, my heart says yes, make myself vulnerable for the thrill of releasing it, but my conscience says to wait it out and see how things go. Please let my dreams be kind to me tonight.
Goodnight anyone who happens to read this stuff.
-H.G.M.
Soooooooo… I’ve been working on my newest project today… and I’ve made some exciting progress… Still not going to say what it is, but just know it is going to be ridiculous and possibly good (no music thus far, but tons of lyrics).
